This is my first time writing a blog. I feel a little strange about it. More so worried that someone is going to come on here and be like “Wow I know who this is.” I don’t want that. As you can see in the title of this, today I will be talking about the way I am feeling. I recently got stuck in a situation where I made some kind of mistake but even though I didn’t know I was making that mistake, still got punished for it.

I know that I have to be an adult and control my emotions but I can’t help but be angry about the whole thing. I didn’t do anything terrible but I’m still getting treated like I’m one of the worst people in the world. At least that is how I feel I am being treated. I am constantly being told that it is not the end of the world and that it is not that serious. But it feels that serious to me. Just imagine having to be constantly called out for doing nothing by someone you look up to; someone you thought was there for you regardless. This person constantly victimizes themselves and does not hold any responsibility and it’s frustrating.

But anyways, let me just get back to me. I just want to be heard and understood but instead I have to suck up to everyone. I’ve put too much work into this but at the same time why do I want to show up somewhere I am going to be constantly scrutinized. It’s difficult for me because every time something like this comes up, my feelings get the best of me and I become as indecisive as a teen who just got accepted to Princeton and Harvard. Which one do I choose kind of thing. I’m starting to just become an emotional wreck and it’s difficult having to constantly hear that I need to control my emotions. I need to speak to my counselor soon so I’ll be doing that Friday.

The title of this blog no longer makes sense.